On getting there.

If you know me at all, you know weight and body image has been a lifelong struggle for me.  This is partially from my love of food (no shame there) and probably also from misplaced anxieties and misguided strategies on reward and punishment regarding food that i picked up somewhere along the way.

As a kid, I was in and out of big diet programs by age 11.  I've been 400lbs at my biggest, 180 at my smallest, and everywhere in between as an adult.  Starting a program has never been hard for me, but sticking to and finishing always seems to be the issue.  This year has been a transformative one for me.  I changed my lifestyle completely and have really begun to examine my methods and open up about my secrets.  I changed everything in the spring and am continuing for what i'd like to say is forever.  I'm ignoring numbers on a scale and sizes in a dress and focusing on pushing myself to do everything I want to and never thought possible.  If every day I can redefine a limit or a maximum, I'm happy and I'm satiated.

I'm not dieting, I'm not starving and I'm not binging.  I'm thinking about how food affects my body and my moods.  I'm challenging myself every day doing things with my body I never thought possible; running, weight lifting, yoga, and even big, scary grown up squats and deadlifts.  I've discovered I am STRONG.  I am powerful and I am remaining honest and open about my limits.  I want to work with anyone who has seen the inside of this issue and wants to come on out.  I want to give back what my favorite teachers have given me.

If you want to come along for the ride, or need someone to help you out, don't hesitate to reach out.  Next spring, I'll graduate and be able to reach out to more people and have nailed down a six-month program to help guide potential clients and friends to their ideal health.  For now, I'm very open to talking and giving and advice I have from my journey thus far.